No Walk in the Park

Being a mom is hard. I told William today that if I could go to bed for one night, knowing that I would get a full night's sleep and could sleep as long as I wanted, that I would probably wake up an entirely new person! He responded saying that I probably wouldn't sleep at all. He's probably somewhat right, but I have been so exhausted the past couple of days and I really don't know what to do about it. I sleep when Arden sleeps, but he doesn't sleep much! Even during naps, he wakes up after only 45 minutes and won't go back to sleep. He is starting to sleep a little longer at night, but that doesn't seem to be helping my situation all that much. I have been trying so hard to keep him on a routine of eating, playing and sleeping, but it seems like something interferes everyday. He either wakes too early from a nap or is hungry early or when he finally goes to sleep, and stays asleep, he sleeps too long between feedings, or we have somewhere to go and his nap schedule is thrown completely out the window. This is all very confusing to me and I'm trying to do what is best for him but I feel like I can't figure out what is best for him! Everything I've read says that infants need consistency. Well infants aren't consistent so how are you supposed to be consistent for them if they don't follow your lead? Obviously, I'm just really tired and frustrated. I don't want to create habits of him not napping. I don't want him to not get enough sleep. I don't want him to go hungry if he's hungry before it's "time." Surely all of this eating and sleeping will start working better together soon, right?! Please tell me this won't last forever and that I won't have a baby who still only sleeps 5 hours at night and doesn't take a good nap during the day in a few months from now!! Please!? Ha.