A month ago today...

I was up at 5:30 am for a much different reason than why I was up at that time this morning. Arden is one month old today and I must admit, I would rather be up feeding a baby than birthing one! Him being a month old means that we have been camped out in our apartment watching movies and hanging out while taking care of a baby for a whole month straight! It's been a whirlwind of events and emotions with family in and out of town, practically sleepless nights, learning the tricks of the trade and getting to know our baby boy. I know people say it all the time, but it really is hard to believe that he's been here for a month already. We're definitely ready for him to sleep longer at night and for him to be more alert during the day, but I know that soon I might be wishing for these days again where he's so little and precious. I still feel weird being called a mom. I don't feel like a mom, or at least like I thought a mom should feel (don't really know what that is, so don't ask, but I thought I'd feel different than I do). Yes my conversations have changed and do seem to center around Arden a lot, but I'm still me and still have my personality and can still just hang out with the girls and not talk about mom stuff, so I guess I'm feeling pretty good. I have been living in a bubble though and will eventually have to make it out into the real world on my own soon. I've been spoiled having someone here with me this entire month. However, after William goes back to work and a couple more weeks of visitors, I will be on my own and that is a scary thought. It has been nice to hand Arden off to someone else when I feel overwhelmed or when I want to take a shower or bath or nap. Those days are coming to an end though and I just hope I'm up for the task! I am looking forward to see what this next month brings though and the changes that Arden will make in his development and such. It's so fun to see a little person that you helped make growing right before your eyes....strange, but great! Happy One Month Birthday Little Mister!