In the wee small hours of the morning

I am up for an early morning feeding and thought I'd do a little post. There have been so many things I've wanted to post about but I'm just not sure where to start so let's see...How about I just make a list:

1. How is it that some people look so good after just giving birth? You've all seen pictures of me (and if not, just take my word for it) and I looked really rough. I mean we're talking more swollen than Violet Beauxregard after chewing Willy Wonka's 3 course meal gum! I had busted blood vessels all over my face and shoulders. My hair was a disaster even after a shower, make up was days away, and I was of course given a gown with a hole at the boob. All of my friends seemed to look pretty impressive after birthing, but let's face it, I was not so fortunate! Don't try to convince me otherwise either...it's ok I'd just done the hardest workout of my life...no need to look good doing it, right?!

2. I am really itching to use my mad photography skills to get some fun shots of Arden, and I am hoping to get a chance to do that soon! So hopefully, some world- famous Lora Lott Photography will be popping up on here soon!

3. I like when people tell me I have a beautiful baby...even if they're just saying it, I must admit I agree!

4. I like that I'm the only one who can calm him down when he's hungry...I feel magic! However, unless done exactly right, breastfeeding is the most painful thing I've experienced yet! We've gotten the hang of it now, but I'm not going to say that a few breakdowns haven't occurred because of it. I even attended a "Breastfeeding Support Group" which I like to call Breastfeeders Anonymous, and I can't say I won't go back. I must admit I'm a little confused as to why the most sensitive area on a woman's body is the place that is to be sucked on continuously...I mean really...why can't it feel like sucking on a finger rather than someone using sand paper on say, chapped lips? Yeah, try that one on for size.

5. I absolutely love seeing William with Arden. I mean I already thought William was the cutest human on the face of the earth with the perfect bod and stuff, but seeing him as a dad makes me melt all over again. There's something about being with daddy that calms Arden down when he's upset. They like to swing in the hammock on our balcony in the sunshine.

6. I must admit that it's been nice having so many people here to fulfill my every need, but sometimes I feel like the White Witch asking for them to do so much! I feel bad when I ask for something as soon as they've sat down, but then again...I guess I should take advantage of the help while I've got it!

7. I don't like having visitors right now because A: I get nervous with them touching Arden..what if they have germs?! and B: I can't just bust out a boob when he's hungry so then he gets upset and it makes me upset (on the inside). Plus, for some reason, when people have been here, it's made me sweat..literally, and that grosses me out. I guess too many hot bodies in a tight space or something.

8. I like being up at this time because I get to be by myself with Arden with no one else around and it's just relaxing.

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So anyway, just a few random thoughts for you this morning! Time to go back to sleep!